a pen and a talking heart

Me <3 God

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

watching the rain drops
wishing time would go back
back to the days when he's with me
to the days when he's all i see


the miss the smiles and the laughters
i miss the words he used to utter
i miss the songs he used to sing for me
i miss the way he says "i love you baby"


I think of him when i'm all alone
everyday i wish he would call me on my phone
he's voice is all i need to hear
to make me feel that he's just near


i miss the damn way he makes me laugh
i miss the way he comforts me when my life gets rough
i wish someday we'll be sharing jokes again
i wish someday we'll be together again


i miss his hand holding mine
when i'm with him everything seems so fine
he means the whole world to me
and he's all i need beside me

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

i wish





huhuhu! i've seen something soooooooo nice in a commercial... as-in napa nganga talaga ako.. huhu! wish ko may ganun din ako.. e2 yun oh..



I wish to have this..:(

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

mean me!

Sorry Lord.. i made something bad today.. i sent a message to my friends saying "bad 3p na DASURECO (Davao Sur Electricity Corporation), stupid! useless! morons! dumb ass!" i was carried away by my anger, not knowing na ang mom nung isang friend ko dun nagwowork, and take take note! cya pa yung tiga patay ng kuryente..:( now i'm feeling so guilty... Sabi nya th DASURECO is just following orders nag dedepend lang sila sa schedule ng NAPOCOR... huhu! di ko talaga akalaing mahurt ko cya.. pero sure ako pag cya ang nasa kalagayan ko ganun din reaction nya... pero i really feel so mean... sorry talaga Lord for acting bad... for judging without knowing the reason behind.. and for my friend Xernan Lee Lapaz, this is my public apology for you...


Saturday, April 3, 2010

happy easter!

just got home from the church.. isn't it so nice to think na humingi ka ng tawad kay Lord at pinatawad ka din Nya... parang ang sarap ng buhay na wala ka nang kasalanan.. pero dahil tayo ay tao laman, natetempt tayo na gumawa ng mali.. I regretted those days na inaaway ko mama at papa ko... nung di ko pa naaappreciate ang mga ginagawa nila para sa akin, alam kong para sa kabutihan ko yung ginagawa nila pero minsan kasi gus2 kong magdesisyon nang ako lang, kaya tuloy minsan nagpapalitan kami ng salita... i can't even remember the last time i told them that i love them, ngayon kasi nakakailang na sabihin yan.. pero pinapakita ko naman na mahal ko talaga sila, di ko nga sila inaaway, iniintindi ko na sila kasi nga matanda na sila... narealize ko they're not getting younger so why not i'll show them how much i love them, how much time do i want to spend with them... ayokong mawala sila, gusto ko forever na sila ang parents ko, pero alam kong darating din ang araw na iiwan nila kami... so habang andito pa sila, pinapakita ko sa kanila kung gaano ko sila kamahal... basta, i don't want to argue with them anymore, alam ko kasing nasasaktan din sila, ayoko maging selfish... Mama, Papa, mahala na mahal ko po kayo.. sana po kayo ulit ang magiging parents ko sa next life ko...:)) *sniff*


Friday, April 2, 2010

read!

well.. as a part of our tradition, me, my mum and my sister joined the prosisyon.. before, join lang ako ng join.. i mean di ko iniisip kung bakit kami sumasama, kasi sabi ni mama kabayaran daw yun sa mga nagawang kasalan namin... the long hours of prolonged standing and a 3-4 kilometers of walking following Jesus's coffin.. But kanina, i had the chance to think about something, to take everything seriously, i realized that andon kami para ihatid c Jesus sa kanyang huling hantungan,,, i almost cried kasi dinibdib ko lahat.. He died from the cross just to save us fron our sins.. He is worth to be praised... Tapos samantalang naglalakad kami, napansin ko yung ibang tao, di naman sa binabantayan ko ang mga kilos nila, it's just that di ko kasi maiwasan na mag comment sa isip ko lang... They seem to be busy chatting, laughing, and mapapansin mo talaga na walang sense yung pagsama nila... yung parang pakitang tao lang.. well, it's not that i'm judging them, pero mafifeel mo naman talga kung sino yung sincere sa ginagawa nila... Basta, halos napaiyak talaga ako, naisip ko ganun din ako noon nung di ko pa masyadong inintindi yung mga sacrifice na ginawa ni Jesus pra sa atin.... And nadifferentiate yung noon at ngayon, kung gaano kaseryoso yung mga tao sa mga panata nila before, tapos ngayon mabibilang mo nalang yung mga totoong nagmamahal sa Kanya.. lalo na ang mga kabataan, kasi parang wala talagang care sa mga nangyayari.. tsk! sana magbago na ang lahat agaya ko.. sana may maghahatid din sa kanila sa tamang daan.. ako gusto kong gawin yan, sana matulungan din ako ng iba para marerealize din nila ang mga narealize ko... and so that they will be back in the heart of worship like me, sana mahalin din nila c Lord ng buong-buo, na walang pagdadalawang isip... at pag nagawa na nila yun, SWEAR they'll receive countless blessings just like i do... kung sino man ang makakbasa nito, sana may marealize ka din.. magbalik loob na tayo.. God Bless



Heart of Worship

Verse 1:
When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

Bridge:
I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

Chorus:
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus

Verse 2:
King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath

Bridge:
I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

Chorus:
I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus

Chorus:
I'm coming back to the heart of worship,
And it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You,
It's all about You, Jesus



Wednesday, March 17, 2010

you + me = meant to be lll

click this to play while reading..:))


Suddenly it started raining but they took their time under the rain and the freezing wind... While Rye is driving his motorcycle Thea just hugged him to minimize the freezing wind..

"This is such a perfect moment" Thea said

"Every moment with you is perfect, baby" Rye replied with a sarcastic smile

"Baby?? uhmmm... it sounds corny but sweet.." Thea replied

Then they both laughed.. Until they reached their houses...

"Bye, BABY.." Rye teased her

Thea laughed and said

" See you tomorrow BABY.. haha"

When Thea got inside their house, she immediately dried her self... Then went downstairs to eat dinner.. After dinner she went back to her room to study, as she was about to open her books Rye called...

"Hi baby, been thinking about you.. I miss you already.. what are you doing?" Rye said

"What? We've just departed like almost an hour ago then you missed me already? You're such a lier" Thea replied

"No, baby.. I'm not joking... It's true.. I would never lie to you, not today not ever... I Love You" says Rye

"owh.. That's so sweet.. Don't spoil me with sweet your sweet words, i might get used to it" Thea said

"I'll stay this way forever baby..:) I told mom about us and she's so happy.. You should have seen her face when i told her" Rye replied

"What? [laughs] owh no.. I'm sure she's gonna tell my mom about us... But it's ok... I know i mean we both know this is all they ever wanted" Thea said


"Yeah.. Owh! I almost forgot, it's our final exam tomorrow so we better study or else we're dead.. haha!" says Rye


"Yes, that's what i'm about to do but then you called" Thea replied


"I'm sorry if I disturbed you baby.. I just missed you... So, bye for now.. See you tomorrow baby.. I Love You" says Rye


"No, you did not disturbed me.. ok... see you tomorrow baby.. I Love You too.." Thea replied


So Thea continued studying and slept at around 11pm.. Then she woke up at late and rushed to the bathroom..
Rye txt her saying they have to go fortunately she's all done... So she bid her parents goodbye and ran outside... So they drove from their house up to their school.. When they reached the parking Thea bid goodbye to Rye, as she was about to leave her Rye held her and pulled her towards his lips [good thing no one was around] Thea hit her in the arms and laughed...


"See you at lunch baby.. Good luck!" Rye said


Thea just smiled and ran inside their classroom...


Silence ruled over their campus as everybody is taking the exam... After 5hours the the bell rings..


"oohh! lunch time... I can already hear my tummy growling... Let's eat lunch together Thea" says Belle [Thea's friend]


"I'm sorry belle but me and Rye will eat lunch together" Thea said


"Are you two already a couple?" asks Belle


Everybody is listening what she was about to say.....


"Yes..." answers Thea


Then everybody teased he... They were so happy for the both of them..


"That's good! You two look good together.." Belle said


"owh! i really have to go guys.. I'm sure Rye is already waiting for me... Bye guys... See you later" Thea replied and went straight to the canteen..


"I'm sorry if I made you wait baby.." Thea said


"No, it's ok baby.. let's eat..." Rye replied


As they were eating they talked about how hard was the exam about what to do after the exam..


"How about we go on vacation this summer baby.. Just the two of us.." Rye said


"Sure baby.. That would be fun...:)) Can't hardly wait" Thea replied


And so the sem has ended... They were both excited to go on vacation without their parents..


--------to be continued--------




Monday, March 15, 2010

me + you = meant to be ll


Thea went straight to bed after Rye left... She found it hard to sleep, she's always thinking about how she feels the time Rye kissed her.. And finally, after 3hrs of thinking she felt sleepy.. She looked at her alarm clock and was shocked


"owh no! it's already 3am! tsk! I need to sleep" Thea said to her self.


"rrriiiinnngggggg!!!" her clock alarms.. She woke up and got up to bed (she don't wanna be late for their quiz)


Just when was about to enter the gate she saw Rye waving at her.. She pretended she haven't notice him and continued walking until she reached their classroom... Then her phone rings..


"Hello? Rye? What is it? Can we talk later? I have to review for our quiz" Thea said


"owh I'm sorry.. ok, I'll wait for you in the canteen before lunch.. ok?" Rye replied


After their conversation Rye is thinking about her all the time... He can't concentrate on his class, he's thinking Thea might be mad at him.. Then the bell rings... It's lunch time.. Rye waited for her but she didn't show up.. Rye was so disappointed and decided to text her saying,


"Hi, are you mad ? Please don't be, i can't take it if we will always be like this.. I'll give up my love just to have our friendship back, please don't do this to me.. If you're not mad, meet me on the parking lot after class.. I'll take you to a place where we can talk... Please...."


After class, Rye was nervous.. He waited for Thea, after an hour of waiting Thea finally came out...


"Thea! Owh my.. you don't know how happy I am to see you.." Rye said it while holding her hand


"So where is it? Let's go..." Thea replied while pulling her hand away


So they drove from their school up to the beach, where they used to play when they were young..


"Wow... I missed this place.. It reminded me of so many things when we were still kids..." Thea said


"Yeah.. Me too.. I miss those times... I can't afford to lose you Thea.. i honestly can't go on my life without you, you'll always be a part of me... I Love You Thea but i can give it up for the sake of our friendship" Rye replied while looking deeply in her eyes..


Thea looked away and said,


"You know Rye.. I've been thinking about that the whole time... I just don't understand why do we have to be like this.. You've been a part of me too and after thinking i realized that we don't have to end the friendship nor the love we feel for each other, we can be friends at the same time lovers and.. that's it... I Love You too Rye, i hope it's not yet too late" and then Thea held his hand


Rye was surprised and said


"I don't what to say Thea.. N--o, it's not yet too late.. Wow! I can't find the right words to say Thea... I'm so happy...!" then Rye hugged her so tight and they looked deeply in each others eyes, smiled and then they kissed again..


--------to be continued--------

Sunday, March 14, 2010

me + you = meant to be

"Thea!" shouted Rye

"yes? what is it? am in a rush rye, can we talk later?" Thea replied

"oh! ok.. i'll wait for you in the canteen at lunch..." Rye said

"ok, ok... i really have to go.. see you later..." Thea replied with a smile...

Thea and Rye has been friends since 1st grade.. Well except for their parents has been great friends since high school, they're also neighbors... Rye usually stays so late in Thea's house and so is Thea.. They've treated each other as Brothers and Sisters, their parents usually teases them since they were young until they reached High School.. But Thea being obsess in her studies always ignores it.. Rye, on the other hand has developed a secret crush on Thea but he knows her very well, he knows Thea's definition about love is STUDY so he kept it for a long time...

"Where have you been? it's like I've been waiting for years" Rye said

"I'm sorry Rye, i was on the library, I had hard time looking for the books I needed.. sorry... i'll make it to you, how about a dinner at our house, is that ok?" Thea replied

"oh.. ok... That would be alright, c'mon let's eat..." Rye said

After eating lunch they immediately headed to their respective classes before the bell rings...

"6pm tonight!" Thea reminded

Rye just smiled.. He felt that tingling sensation all over his body..

....6pm Rye arrived just as Thea and her mom finished preparing dinner... after dinner they watched TV in the living room..

"Thea, i'm tired from work.. I have to sleep early.. Don't you two stay up too late.. ok?" her mom teasingly said

"ok tita we won't" Rye smiled and winked

"crazy" Thea laughs

"so how about we stay in your roof.. just like the old days" Rye suggested

"sure... Let's go..." Thea smiled

Then they laid in the roof and talked about stuffs... about their classmates gossiping teachers while staring at the stars.. Then suddenly they felt silence all around... Rye looked at Thea, she seems to be taking her time watching the stars but then she noticed that Rye is staring at her.. Feeling awkward she asked why is he staring at her... Rye said,

"see the brightest star? That's you"

"Me? Why?" Thea confusingly asked

"Because someday, that star will light my home"

Then silence were all over again... Thea felt her heart pumps faster and faster as Rye moves closer to her... As their skin touches she felt chills.. Rye, just stared at her as if he doesn't noticed that Thea is in tensed.. Thea just closed her eyes as Rye's lips moved closer to her lips.... Then they kissed...... Thea felt butterflies in her tummy, as they kiss she felt that the color changed all around, she felt like flying on neverland with Peter Pan just like Wendy.. Then she pushed Rye away...

"Wh--y? I'm sorry if that was wrong.. Sorry i was just carried away by my emotions" Rye said

"Rye, it's getting late... We don't want to be late in our class tomorrow don't we?" Thea said as she stood up and looked away..

"no we don't... ok... You're right.. See you tomorrow" Rye, stood up too..

As were they about to go down Rye grabbed Thea's hand and said,
"I Love You Thea, there would be no other girl that I would love except you, I'm sorry, i just can't keep this feeling any longer"

"Rye, let me think about this.. Please just give me enough time to think things over" Thea requested

"ok Thea, i'll give you enough time to think... i'll patiently wait Thea.." Rye said

--------to be continued--------



Saturday, March 13, 2010

weehh!!

i'll post my first story tomorrow.. :))

Friday, March 12, 2010

share

and yes.. i lay it all to God... He knows how disappointed i am... but i know He have a better plan for me...

you see.. i fell inlove with this guy who happens to fall from someone else.. my dreams, my hopes, my fantasies are gone.. all turned to fear, pain, rejection and disappointment and self pity...
i was down since i knew the truth..
just before this all happened, we were fine... it's just he made me feel he loved me too...

you see, i just don't like feeling this way.. tsk! i promised myself i would never fall for someone who won't love me back in the end.. but i ended up breaking my promise.. huhu now am feeling a bit better and a bit bitter...:'(

after all, there's still many fish in the sea... there's always a guy out there with a glue gun [if you know what i mean]

well... i'm still working on that story... i'll post it soon..

Thursday, March 11, 2010

haha!

i got home at around 2:30am but i my mum didn't even scolded me... hahaha
it's so unusual... well. usually when i stay outside late she gets mad...
in fact she woke me up, smiled and gave me a new shirt.. isn't that weird?? haha

well.. i had fun helping my friends in their project..:))
i hope it will happen again...o.o

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

update

oohhh!!! update before the said black-out...
yes.. 6hrs BLACK-OUT again.. it's funny when i see every house without lights..
it's like we are living in a secluded place..LOL
it scares me especially if the wind is cold (it gives me goosebumps)...

owh.... last night i was able to see the stars... i just love staring at it, sadly i haven't seen any falling star..
if i saw one i would wish, LONG TIME happiness.. and success.. yes! that's my ultimate wish

well... while looking at the stars i remembered so many things... like my life in high school, watching the stars with my friend.. i kinda miss doing things like that with them..
i kinda miss my life before.. u know when i wasn't like this, stuck at home, surfing the net, eat, txt, sleep, doing house hold chores..i miss going to school to..:(

uhmmm.... (sigh) i don't like my life now... i feel so alone... I BADLY MISS MY FRIENDS...T.T

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

blog update

what the... i'be been very nice lately and i wonder why.. haha! well... i think i'm a lot mature now...:))

after those confusing days, here i am now.. living my life to the fullest because i realized that there are lots of reasons to be happy..

love can wait... i know i'll meet "him" someday... maybe he's just stuck in traffic.-.o so i'll patiently wait..

uhmm.... i'm into a new addiction.. hahaha! David Sides! OMG! i so love his videos, try to check him on youtube for sure you'll love him too..

and owh!! owl city is in my list too... i super love his songs... it kinda refreshed my thoughts..:))

so, i guess there's nothing more left to share.. nothing interesting really happened lately so.. this is all i can share..:)

Sunday, March 7, 2010

the truth




uhmmm.. who said love could be felt in the heart??




well.. as a former nursing student (you see i just stopped this sem).. i know the function of the heart..

it pumps blood then the systemic loop begins when the oxygen-rich blood coming from the lungs enters the upper left chamber of the heart, the left atrium. As the chamber fills, it presses open the mitral valve and the blood flows down into the left ventricle. When the ventricles contract during a heartbeat, the blood on the left side is forced into the aorta. This largest artery of the body is an inch wide. The blood leaving the aorta brings oxygen to all the body’s cells through the network of ever smaller arteries and capillaries. The used blood from the body returns to the heart through the network of veins. All of the blood from the body is eventually collected into the two largest veins: the superior vena cava, which receives blood from the upper body, and the inferior vena cava, which receives blood from the lower body region. Both venae cavae empty the blood into the right atrium of the heart.

From here the blood begins its journey through the pulmonary cycle. From the right atrium the blood descends into the right ventricle through the tricuspid valve. When the ventricle contracts, the blood is pushed into the pulmonary artery that branches into two main parts: one going to the left lung, one to the right lung. The fresh, oxygen-rich blood returns to the left atrium of the heart through the pulmonary veins.




you see?? theres no emotional feeling involved... therefore i realized that LOVE is just in the MIND.. you see... the CENTER OF EMOTIONS is in the HYPOTHALAMUS which is located below the Thalamus just above the Brain Stem...




so, LOVE is in the mind... so why would you say your heart can identify if it is love or not??

just think about it.. so now you can't ask what to follow, either your brain or your heart because you know you'll end up following what your mind says..

Saturday, March 6, 2010

MOVE ON

How do we let go of the past??

Discipline your thoughts to stop thinking about it
Quit talking about it
Quit reliving every negative experience
Quit mourning about something you can't change


God wants to give you a new beginning, but you have to let go of the old before you'll ever see the new
Let the door close behind you and step through the door in front of you...:))

a perfect guy


a PERFect guy………….

-hE kn0wz h0w 2 mAke u smyl wEn ur d0wn
-try 2 secretLy smeLL uR hAir, bUt u aLways n0ticE
-stck up 4 u bUt stiLL rEspects ur indepEndence
-givE u the rEm0te dUring thE gAme
-cUm up bEhind u aNd pUt his armZ ar0und u
-pLays w/ ur hAir
-his hAnds aLways fiNd urz
-b cUte wEn hE riLi nEeds sUmtiNg
-0ffEr u pLenty 0f mAssagEs
-dAnce w/ u evEn if hE fiLz likE a d0rk
-nEver run out of LOVE
-b fUnny bUt kn0w h0w 2 b sEri0uz
-rEaLize hE’s bEing fUnny wEn hE nEeds 2 b sEri0uz
-b pAtiEnt wEn u tAke 4evEr 2 b rEady
-rEact s0 cuteLy wEn u hit him aNd it actUaLLy hUrtz
-smyL a lot
-apprciAte u
-heLp 0thErs out
-always givE u a pEck 0n thE chEek wEn u dpArt eAch othErs c0mpaNy, evEn wEn his fwnds arE wAtchiNg
-stAre at u
-c0L 4 n0 ris0n
-intr0duces u 2 his fwNds as his GIRLFRIEND
-pLans a vEry r0mAntic dAte
-pLans his fUturE w/ u
-sAyz ur prEety evEn at ur ugLiest
-sAyz ur d bEst evEn at ur w0rst
-cAnceLs his mEeting jUst 2 hAve lunch w/ u
-invitEs u 2 dinnEr w/ his fAmiLy
-hUgs u wEn ur fiLing s0 d0wn,,,,,,,,,
i h0pe u find 1…:>

Friday, March 5, 2010

best love quotations and saying i've read Part 1


*love- when you cry tears over him and still want him. it's when he ignores you and still love him. it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say "i'm happy for you" when all you really do is cry


*all i need is just one guy to prove to me that they're NOT ALL THE SAME

*love- giving someone the ability to destroy your heart but trusting them enough not to

*there's nothing a girl wants more than something she can't have

*i want someone who just wants to be near me, to whisper in my ear, to hold my hand, to put my hair back behind my ear when it falls front, to wrap me in his arms, and tell me he loves me.

*if he only knew how much i need him

*every girl wants a man that she can go to in her sweats, hair a mess, make up running down her face, eyes red from crying and the and the first thing he says to her is "baby you're beautiful" and means it

*and when you love someone, you don't give up

*happiness is a journey [not a destination]

*why do i love someone who doesn't love me in return?
 why do i cry for someone who didn't hurt me
 why do i always think about him, if he never thought about me?
 why do i always wait for him, if he have never waited for me?
 why do i see him, but he doesn't see me?
 TELL ME WHY??

*i wish i knew what he was thinking when he looks at me and smiles

*relationships are worth fighting for but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting

*love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies

*love is like the wind.. you can't see it but can feel it

*if you love somebody. set them free if they return they were always yours if they don't they never were

*why am i afraid to lose you when you aren't even mine

*pretending i don't need you is like pretending i don't need air

*should i smile because we're friends or cry because that's all we will ever be?

*loving you is like breathing, how can i stop?

*they say love is around every corner.. i must be walking in circles

*i never stopped loving you i just stopped showing it

*people need love the most when they deserve it the least

*through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse, i will love you with every beat of my heart

*everything is alright in the end. if it's not alright, it's still not the end

*if you can't get someone off your head, the maybe the're suppose to be there

*to the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world

*love is a moment that lasts forever

*love isn't blind, it just only sees what matters

*finding love is like finding one answer to all of your prayers

*somewhere between our laughs, long talks, stupid little fights, and all our jokes i fell inlove with you

*if he really loves you, he'll listen to what you have to say and not what he hears from others

*i just want you to love me, is that so much to ask?

*if loving you is wrong, i don't wanna be right again

*you know when you really love someone when you want him/her to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it

*even if love is full of thorns, i'll still embrace it. for i know that in between the thorns, there's a rose that's worth all the pain

*the greatest weakness of most human is their hesitancy to tell others, how much they love them while they're alive

*

Monday, March 1, 2010

Isn't it?

Isn't it love when you make my heart skip a beat?
Isn't it love when I melt every time our eyes meet?
Isn't it love when all I wanna do is hold your hand?
Isn't it love when I feel something that i don't understand?

Isn't it love when my heart seems to burst each time we talk?
Isn't it love when I want your arms around me while we walk?
Isn't it love when I take my time staring at you?
Isn't it love when everyday i wanna kiss you?

Isn't it love when I always want to talk about you?
Isn't it love when I always dream about you?
Isn't it love when I'm shaking each time I see you?
Isn't it love when I wish you feel the same way too?

Every time I'm with you is always a perfect scene
If this isn't love then tell me WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?

Sunday, February 28, 2010

UNTITLED

The more I ignore my true feelings
The more I realize so many things
Every time I walk away from you
The road still leads me back to you

I heard your heart calling for someone
I just haven't heard who's the one
I always pray that is me
I always wish we're meant to be

I want to hug you and never let go
I want to tell you the things that you should know
I want to show you how much I Love You
And prove to you that it is true

But then I dunno how to start
I don't know if it's me inside your heart
If love can make us strong then why do I feel so weak
When I'm with you it seems like i dunno how to speak

If you're not that numb you'll see what is real
That I really am falling for you head over heels
There's so much more that's left unsaid
And those words kept bothering in my head

I can never be tired of loving you
I can never be tired of hoping you'll love me too
I hope you'll hear my heart screamin'
That you're the one I've been hopin' and dreamin'


I hope you'll be able to read this...
I Love You


Tuesday, February 16, 2010

if i'm really over him then why am i feeling this way?

Monday, February 15, 2010

Sunday, February 14, 2010


my stUpid HEART believEs yoUr stUpid LIES

i jUst don't shOw it

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

....

i'm just an ordinary person who hopes for the best in my life... a person who dreams of a perfect life and a person who wishes to be successful someday.. but now, my bright future is on the waiting list for my parents can't afford to send me to school.. i was down, felt useless and helpless for there is no way i can help them earn money for our daily needs.. i once had lots of friends, i once has always someone to talk to, i was once a happy person i use to go out with friends and come home so late... i was once on top but now felt at the bottom for i think i have nothing left.. my friends and dreams are all gone..(well that's what i thought) but then one day someone invited me to join a "campus break" where we praise and worship God by different kinds of songs...since that day i realized a lot of things.. like everything happens for a reason, that in every challenge God has given, i must face it and have to accept the all the things i encounter for God has a better plan for me.. i know in time i'll be able to reach my dreams (i'll be patient) still i'll be praying for the best and leave it all to Him..:D

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Fight for the Win

Your fears shuts the dim lights
You're shivering and starting to have frights
You're loosing but still wanna fight
That's the only thing you know thats right


Stop, Listen and Feel
You start to think if this is real
Your life gives you surprising thrills
To win the game you have use the right skill


Fight, Run, Hide or Seek
You know you really have to pick
Deep inside you hide you're weak
But into your goal you really have to stick


Cry, Fly, Walk or Stay
What makes you happy anyway?
What keeps you alive within the day?
Who's willing to be with you and stay?


Aim, Steady and Fire
You have to walk along in the wire
Never let yourself to fall
never let yourself look so small


-anirod-

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Never been (closer)

I.
Do, do, dododo, do, do, do
Come a little closer
There's something i want to say
Come a little closer
So that i can be able to hold you close
Close your eyes
Leave it all to me
I'll take you somewhere you've never been

Chorus:
Never been inlove this way
Never been happy throughout the day
Never been so glad since the day
You came into my life
And made me fly so high
I don't want this to be over
So come a little closer
There's so many words I have to utter
Come a little closer
And stay that close forever

II.
Do, do, dododo, do, do, do
Hold my hand a little tighter
The days ahead will be brighter
I promise there will be no more tears
We will make it through the years
As long as there's still tomorrow
All the days will be spent with no more sorrows


Chorus:
Never been inlove this way
Never been happy throughout the day
Never been so glad since the day
You came into my life
And made me fly so high
I don't want this to be over
So come a little closer
There's so many words I have to utter
Come a little closer
And stay that close forever

Bridge
I will be forever yours
And you will be forever mine
Live with me in this magical world
Hear the greatest story ever told
We'll make our dreams come true
And I promise I will forever love you

Chorus:
Never been inlove this way
Never been happy throughout the day
Never been so glad since the day
You came into my life
And made me fly so high
I don't want this to be over
So come a little closer
There's so many words I have to utter
Come a little closer
And stay that close forever

Friday, January 1, 2010

left-out

Just so you thought you had it all
Later did you realize you're about to fall
Then you also realized there's nothing left to call
You see everyone has built a very high wall


You walk alone with your head down
Along your journey all you do is frown
You wished to get rid of misery
You wished that anyone knows the real story


You walk along the road alone
All around has the heart of a stone
Every second you always pray
That the sun will be out someday


Waiting for someone who can erase your sorrow
Wishing for someone who could stay 'till tomorrow

You continue to walk with tears in your eyes
Hoping that someone would care to be nice

-anirod-